I know that:
I am attracted to women, but not to men.
When I first saw a sissy many years ago, I thought he looked silly.
But when I chatted to a Domme and confessed I had a small manhood, she told me I should become comfortable wearing lingerie and on my knees in front of big cocks.
I didn’t see that as happening.
But when I listened to a sissy audio series out of curiosity, it turned me on.
I started watching and now do like watching cock sucking hypnosis. Actually I am addicted to it.
I do like dressing up in pink: panties, stockings and suspenders, breastforms etc.
I think about sucking cocks. Part of me really wants to do it, part of my resists.
This is all a bit confusing, but I am learning to accept this.